I was raised as Catholic and didn't feel comfortable with that path. There isn't anything specific as to why I had lost faith with the Catholic religion (there is plenty of reasons now). But I started to research different things; magic, both black and white (finding that there is no difference) and other pagan religions, and not finding the answers there either. Then one afternoon I was shopping at one of the malls at a national bookstore chain not looking for anything in particular and pulled a book off of the shelf and when I looked to see what I pick up it was the satanic bible. I dropped the book and left the store as fast as I possibly could (to never return). I was very distressed about this and told this to a friend who I knew was a Christian.
He and his wife took me into their home and invited me to church with them the following Sunday. After going with them every Sunday for about two or three months I accepted Jesus as my Savior. I would like to be able to tell you that my life has been wonderful since that day but unfortunately that is not the case for me. I feel like I am the guy in the poem "Footprints" because for the last several years I am the one that has been carried by Jesus across the sand. I didn't return to my demons of old (lack of faith) but found a whole set of new ones to disrupt my life: selfishness, greed, drugs and lust just to name a few. And the worse part was I forgot all about Jesus and what He has done for me.
My journey back starts with a book, The Fourth Reich, I apologize I don't remember the author. It is a story about the antichrist and the end times. After reading it, I knew that I did not want to be here during his reign. Then a friend of mine turned me on to Tim LaHaye and Jerry Jenkins Left Behind series. After the first couple of books I knew that I had to get right with Jesus and God before it was too late. I went out and bought a new Bible to start reading it and start living my life the way Jesus wants us to be. My favorite time now is the time I spend reading my Bible and learning God's Word.
God Bless you,
Your friend in Christ,